"He has a plan, and I want to be a part of it. Somehow, His plan is going to bring much greater glory than the plan I had in mind because that's what He's about, glorifying Himself." -Michelle Qureshi
[GospelHerald.com] Michelle Qureshi, the wife of late apologist Nabeel Qureshi, has opened up about God's faithfulness in the days following her husband's death and expressed confidence that He will "use this death to a more glorious end than we would have seen if Nabeel were still alive." (Photo: Michelle Qureshi/via GospelHerald.com)
In a video update titled "A More Glorious End," Michelle, who shares a daughter, Ayah, with her late husband, said that while she didn't anticipate making a video, she felt compelled by the Holy Spirit to share what He has been teaching her over the past week.
As reported, Nabeel, a Muslim convert to Christianity who previously served with Ravi Zacharias International Ministries, passed away last week at 34 after a year-long battle with stomach cancer.
Michelle first thanked everyone who has prayed for her family: "I am seeing through your generosity and faithfulness just pieces of the generosity and faithfulness of our God," she said.
She said she's chosen not to place upon herself the burdens associated with the terms "widow" and "single mom," instead identifying herself as a "Child of the Most High King."
"These terms in and of themselves are not bad things, [but] they have a lot of negative connotations," Michelle explained. "So while, yes, I will use them on official paperwork and for communications as descriptors, what I really want to focus on, what God has really helped me to focus on first and foremost, is that I am a child of the Most High King, and He provides for the needs that are associated with those descriptors."
She added, "It's that identity that I can find security despite my circumstances."
Michelle revealed that in June, when Nabeel began to experience "really intense pain" and was subsequently hospitalized, she began to feel "less like his wife" and "more like just his caregiver."
"My expectations of Nabeel began to be exposed," she admitted. "So, as I was crying out to God during that time, He reminded me of how Scripture says, 'My God will supply all of your needs according to the glorious riches in Christ Jesus.' That has been true all of my life. But to hear it now and to realize, moving forward, since God does not change ... He will continue to supply all of my needs."He just allowed Nabeel to be a conduit for a period of time," she said. "And that was a privilege, it's not a right of mine to have a husband. And, all along, even when I wasn't really seeing it that way, God was supplying the needs—sometimes through Nabeel—but ultimately, it was God. So now, even when Nabeel is no longer here, God is still here, and God is still supplying. His Word doesn't change, He doesn't change." (Photo: Michelle and Nabeel/via GospelHerald.com)
While she is finding her strength and security in God, it doesn't mean she isn't wrestling with questions, Michelle said.
"There's a lot I don't know," she said. "But what I do know is that God is big enough to handle our questions, and He's compassionate enough to lead us to deeper and greater truths ... The important thing is, even when I don't know, God is big enough. Even though I don't know, He's compassionate enough, and He can lead me through the wrestling. He's big enough for me to wrestle with these things."
While God is in control, He's also good, said Michelle: "I don't understand why ... but I don't need to," she said. "And even if God told me why, I would probably not be able to grasp .. .His reason with my finite mind, because He is God ... and I am one tiny little thread on a tapestry...
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